I'm not sure if I was unclear or not in my last post, I honestly did not even bother to read it again, but here's this.
I don't think I could ever actually 'quit' music. Like, I started producing music with the thought of "oh, shit, electronic music is so cool, it's even cooler than I can make it myself!". It was like that because at the time I started producing music, I had one of the closest friendships I think I've had with 2 other people whom I don't even talk to anymore. At the time we seemed inseparable and it felt pretty good being able to find cool shit to share with each other and even try to be creative with each other. Eventually we all just went our ways, started talking less and less and got the point where we are now, basically strangers. I pretty much closed up and started keeping to myself after that friendship drifted apart, and music production was beginning to become more of a way to express how I feel instead of just "oh, cool shit".
I've recently felt like I've stopped having fun with music and stopped expressing myself with it. I feel like I've been trying to live up to a standard, and like I've been compairing myself to other artists way too much. I feel like maybe I've just been trying too hard to impress other people with my music and I've drifted so far off of why I actually enjoy making music.So I guess, I made it seem like I was trying to delete my art off of the internet in my last post, but that really isn't the case. I still want to push my music out there, and being heard by as many people as possible is still one of my biggest dreams, and I dont mean to sound repetative, but I guess I really was just trying to follow some kind of guideline or rule book in an attempt to please everyone and I really needed to get rid of that.
That being said, I'm still proud of all my current releases because of the amount of effort I put into all my tracks and how close I got to the sounds I was aiming for. I still have no planned releases for this year though, but I imagine something new will come up in the near future. I am scared to start releasing again though because I don't want to fall back into the same hole of producing music for the sole purpose of pleasing others, so it'll be a while before I feel ready to release music again.