So recently, someone asked a question that really got me thinking.

They asked:

"hey, have you ever just sorta felt... insecure or worried about something? and what was/is it"

Now, of course in my head I'm thinking yeah, it goes through my head every single day. The thought that my music will never really make a huge impact like I want it to. The thought that maybe I'm just not good enough and that I will never be good enough with my music abilities.

But I'm sitting here at 3 a.m and I realise it's a little more than that. I realise that I've never really had any kind of support from my family at all with my art. My family sort of sits down and doesn't acknowledge my music at all. They're completely oblivious to how imprtant it is in my life and it kind of hurts that the only time my own mom can talk about my music is when she just wants to talk shit about the idea of me being a successful music producer.

I feel like even if I had a real, official record label release, my family would even STILL sit completely oblivious to the fact that I want to do music more than anything else in my life and I'm willing to give away anything to purse that dream. I guess at this point I just kind of have to accept that my family just isn't going to be a very supportive figure in my pursit of music, but it's still kind of really hard to fully accept that.

eh.. whatever.. I guess.

on another note, I have more than a few projects that I'm working on and I'll keep you all updated on what's coming out next and when.

~ air